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Ms. Green:
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Hello, Doctor Balis. How are you today?
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Dr. Balis:
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Hello, Anna. I'm fine, thank you. Please sit down. How was your week?
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Ms. Green:
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Kathy called.
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Dr. Balis:
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Really?
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Ms. Green:
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Yeah. Sorry to be so to the point, but I thought you'd like to know about that.
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Dr. Balis:
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Hmm. What did she say?
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Ms. Green:
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I'm still sort of weirded out by it, so let me just tell you about it the long way.
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Dr. Balis:
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Sure. Go ahead.
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Ms. Green:
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Well, last week, I spent a lot of time over at Martin's place. He's getting ready for the fashion show, and I've been spending most of my spare time with him, helping out.
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Dr. Balis:
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Hmm.
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Ms. Green:
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So the last few weeks, I've been getting a lot of hang-up calls. At first, it was just a few. I thought it was Trevor--he sometimes feels strange leaving a personal message on my machine.
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Dr. Balis:
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Why?
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Ms. Green:
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He says it's because of the investigation--since I'm no longer involved, he doesn't want there to be any confusion over that. But I believe it's because he doesn't want to leave any hard evidence of our relationship.
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Dr. Balis:
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Hmm. Do you think that's because of his wife?
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Ms. Green:
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He's been very squirrelly about us lately. Maybe his wife suspects something, I don't really know. I just decided to cool things off a bit and let him feel how uncomfortable that feels.
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Dr. Balis:
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I see.
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Ms. Green:
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Trevor hates the idea that I've been spending so much time with Martin. But I hate the idea that he spends so much time with his wife. So we're even.
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Dr. Balis:
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Hmm. Does Trevor know what you are doing with Martin?
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Ms. Green:
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You mean the S&M fashion show?
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Dr. Balis:
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Last week, you said that you didn't want to tell Trevor about it.
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Ms. Green:
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Well, when he started shadowing me, I had to tell him--he was making me insane.
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Dr. Balis:
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Shadowing you?
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Ms. Green:
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Yeah, that's the drawback of dating a detective--they have ways of finding out what you're up to. So I told him about the show. And I also told him that there's not much he can do about it. We had a bad fight, didn't talk for three days, and then he came crawling back asking forgiveness. Now I'm officially free to do the show with Martin. And I'm actually enjoying it. It's very creative and very different from what I do the rest of my time. And Martin is turning out to be a good friend. He's much better at that than being a boyfriend or a lover, for that matter.
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Dr. Balis:
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Is Trevor still jealous of Martin?
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Ms. Green:
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He thinks that I should separate myself completely from that world. He believes that Martin is bad for me. But how much worse is my relationship with Martin than my involvement with Trevor--the married man? When I put it to him that way, Trevor just let it go. He tells me that I'm just not patient enough: "What difference does his marriage really make to our relationship?"
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Dr. Balis:
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Hmm.
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Ms. Green:
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I thought he was kidding when he said that...
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Dr. Balis:
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Does Trevor still talk of leaving his wife for you?
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Ms. Green:
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That's the main idea. But he said that she's been sick. She conveniently ruptured an ovarian cyst or something and had to be rushed to the emergency room. She's okay now, I think, but Trevor says that she's in a lot of pain.
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Dr. Balis:
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When did that happen?
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Ms. Green:
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Recently, I guess. I don't really know. Trevor doesn't want to breach the subject of separation while she's doing the hormone therapy.
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Dr. Balis:
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What hormone therapy?
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Ms. Green:
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His wife is taking progesterone or some such thing. Trevor said that it's making her really mad, like insane.
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Dr. Balis:
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I see.
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Ms. Green:
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Trevor described how she freaked out over a spot on his shirt after it came back from the laundry. Apparently, she's not in a good way. So I just have to wait.
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Dr. Balis:
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You say that with a lot of sarcasm.
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Ms. Green:
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There's always something, isn't it? And what would have happened if I ruptured a cyst? Would he drop his wife and come to me in a hurry? Somehow, I just don't see it happening that way.
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Dr. Balis:
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So why don't you break off your relationship with Trevor? At least until he has separated from his wife?
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Ms. Green:
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Because when we are together, Doctor, it's very good. When we are together, he makes me feel like everything will work out--life will be beautiful if I just wait a bit. But it's very hard when he's not there...
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Dr. Balis:
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Anna...
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Ms. Green:
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I was going to tell you about Kathy. Are you interested?
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Dr. Balis:
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Oh, sure. But I would like to come back to your relationship with Trevor...
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Ms. Green:
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Well, I was getting all these hang-up calls. And last week, I got a few at work. Finally, Tuesday night, Martin had a meeting, and we decided to take the evening off. When I came home, I had six messages, all hang-ups...well, one was heavy breathing, and than it was a hang-up. It made me very angry, and I was just about to call Trevor and let him have it, when the phone rung. I picked it up and almost started yelling, but it was Kathy. I recognized her voice right away, and it sort of gave me a chill.
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Dr. Balis:
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Hmm. Why did she call you?
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Ms. Green:
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She said that she's been trying to get in touch with me for months. She knew I was being made to help in her police investigation, and so she didn't think it was a good idea to talk to me right after her disappearance. But ever since the police left me alone, and Trevor removed the bugging device from my phone, she felt it was safe enough to try to call me.
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Dr. Balis:
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You had a bugging device on your phone?
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Ms. Green:
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Just for a month or so. Trevor removed it when we started dating--he didn't think it was a good idea to have our conversations recorded.
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Dr. Balis:
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Hmm. How did Kathy know about the bug?
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Ms. Green:
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I didn't ask.
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Dr. Balis:
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Go on, what did Kathy want from you?
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Ms. Green:
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She said that she wanted to tell me how sorry she was for all the trouble she caused me. She said that she was very fucked up and needed help and didn't know it. She said that she thought I would understand after reading her letter.
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Dr. Balis:
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What letter?
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Ms. Green:
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That's what I said: "What letter?" Apparently, she left a note with her aunt the night she ran away.
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Dr. Balis:
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So she wasn't abducted.
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Ms. Green:
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Kathy said that she left a very long letter for me and a note to her aunt with the instructions to give me the letter at the first opportunity.
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Dr. Balis:
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Hmm. They never found the letter or the note...
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Ms. Green:
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Kathy thinks--and I agree with her--that her aunt found the note and the letter and then destroyed them. If she'd given the note to the police, they wouldn't have bothered with the investigation, and no one would have been out there looking for Kathy. Kathy is an adult and is free to come and go as she pleases. But if the police thought she was kidnapped, they would mount an investigation.
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Dr. Balis:
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I see. Well, that would explain the lack of any signs of break-in...
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Ms. Green:
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Precisely! Kathy's window was opened from the inside. You know, that whole family is very screwed up.
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Dr. Balis:
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So Kathy left voluntarily. Did she go to Gray?
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Ms. Green:
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He helped her get out. She's living with him as a full-time slave right now. And that's also a problem--she is not really allowed to use the phone. She had to sneak out to a gas station down the street so that her calls wouldn't be reflected on Gray's phone bill.
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Dr. Balis:
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I see. And is this what Kathy wants?
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Ms. Green:
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She said that there is a certain freedom to being a slave.
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Dr. Balis:
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Hmm?
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Ms. Green:
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She no longer has to worry about making decisions or about making a living. All her necessities of life are completely taken care of by Gray. She said that it feels like this great burden has lifted off her shoulders. She is free of worry, of responsibility. She told me that she knew it would sound just horrible to me, but to her it's real freedom, the kind of freedom she could never get any place else.
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Dr. Balis:
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But at what price?
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Ms. Green:
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She said that she's not doing anything that she wouldn't do if she wasn't with Gray. He keeps her happy and satisfied. She doesn't even have to worry about how she looks any more--that's why when I saw her she was so fat. She eats and fucks as much as she wants. She said that she's completely unused to wearing clothes--she just goes naked all the time, even outside in the yard. When they go to an event, Gray just wraps a blanket around her.
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Dr. Balis:
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How do you feel about all of this?
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Ms. Green:
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Shocked, sort of. It really freaks me out to think of her living like that. Kathy was a very bright woman. She could have done anything, but she chose not to. I have a very hard time understanding that.
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Dr. Balis:
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Are you angry with her?
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Ms. Green:
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Yeah, but I'm angry with the Kathy I used to know. This woman who called me...well, it's hard for me to think of her as the same person, really. She is so alien to me. I had a number of very bad dreams after I spoke to her. And I'm uncomfortable with having to keep this whole thing a secret from Gray...I mean Trevor...and Gray too, I guess. I don't feel like I'm in a very good situation, Doctor.
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Dr. Balis:
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Why do you have to keep Kathy's phone call a secret from Trevor?
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Ms. Green:
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I promised I would.
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Dr. Balis:
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I see.
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Ms. Green:
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God, it's late. I have to go, Doctor. Martin is waiting for me outside. I didn't tell him anything either. This is all too strange. I'll see you next week, Doctor.
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Dr. Balis:
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All right. Call me if you need to talk about this before our next session.
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Ms. Green:
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Thanks. Goodbye.
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Dr. Balis:
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Goodbye, Anna.
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Doctor Balis' Notes on this Session
Transcripts of Anna Green's Communications
